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Sunday, October 09, 2005

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 01:37:39 GMT

I guess I will use this one more as a journal than a reflection blog thing, since no one reads it. I love that God is so willing to draw you back when you sin. I'm so grateful that he's there no matter what. This past week has been a great one. It started off in an excellent not, but ended kind of bad, because I did something I had given up to God and I felt so ashamed. But, I know that he is screaming for me to come back. How many people do that in your life? Scream for you to come back when you've done them wrong, or blown them off... Not a lot in my life. Actually, none. That is why I am so ever grateful for Jesus. He has made me perfect in God's sight. When God looks at me he sees a perfect, sinless child. Wow, what a thought. I'm perfect to someone in every way, shape, and form. That is a rockin feeling!

Saturday, July 23, 2005

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 02:12:04 GMT

Well, I switched back to my blog at blog.com b/c you have to have an account on xanga to leave a comment here. So, here's my other site: www.isaiah43.blog.com

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 03:42:40 GMT

So a really good thing happened to me today. As some of you know there was quite a prominent turning point in my life when I was a teenager. There was this friend that I saw as a mentor and some what of an older sister. I relied a lot on her for advice and pretty much told her everything that was going on in my life. As you may be able to suspect she freaked out, as probably any normal person would, and just cut me off from any conversations period. I haven't talked, written, had any contact w/ her since today.

What prompted this, you may ask? Well, there was a sermon given about becoming a child of God and removing those things that are keeping you from Him. I felt that this was a big step because so many good things came from this.. situation, despite all the pain, which is something I've been needing to get over for a long time. I can't say I'm completely over it, but it's a very good start.

So, I emailed her this morning, finally got up the courage to do it and not care about the response. I really just wanted to see how things were with her and see how her life is going. And, she emailed me back and has, in some way, relieved something that I can't put a finger on quite yet.

This is the scoop on my day today.

James

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 17:49:33 GMT

I suppose I've got a couple things for people to think about and possibly leave a comment if you so desire.

As a lot of you know I go to the Vineyard for church some mornings, and this morning one of the lead ministers was talking about Faith and what it means to have it. She said that having faith is having the willingness to go after what God has for us, and it's our response to Jesus. She said faith is taking a risk for God. It's about taking the risk of reaching out to people and about going after God's will and not being ashamed or embarrassed or scared. Personally, this is something I struggle with, amoung so many other things. A lot of the time I have the mind frame of, 'I'm saved and hopefully I'm joyful enough so that people will question me as to why and I can explain to them about Jesus.' I have rarely, if ever, taken that risk to put myself out there, or even taken the risk in actually trusting God with everything-making it his will.

So, I can't say that I will change completely with this new perception on Faith, but I hope to be up for taking 'risks' whenever I see the chance.

I also have a verse that I read today that.. well, I don't know. But, it's Isaiah 6: 9 & 10. This is what Isaiah was told by God to tell the people of Jerusalem. During this time period Jerusalem is filled with murder and idolatry and is basically a rebellious nation. "And he said, 'yes, go. But tell my people this: You will hear my words, but you will not understand. You will see what I do, but you will not perceive its meaning. Harden the hearts of these people. Close their ears, and shut their eyes. That way, they will not see with their eyes, hear with their ears, understand with their hearts, and turn to me for healing."

Friday, July 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 03:29:18 GMT

I'm currently at Java house with Jenny Baker. We're just chillin, talkin to eachother online and in person-such nerds.

Here's a little taste of Lauren Hill lyrics...

Death to the ascendancy
Causin' desperation to get the best of me
Punishment 'til there was nothing left of me
Realizin' the unescapable death of me
No options in the valley of decision
The only doctrine, supernatural circumcision
Inwardly, only war that can purge the heart
From words that fiery darts
Thrown by the workers of the arts
Iniquity, shapen in
There'e no escapin' when
You're whole philosophy is paper thin
In vanity
The wide road is insanity
Could it be all of humanity
Picture that
Scripture that
The origin of a man's heart is black
How can we show up for
An invisible war
Preoccupied with a shadow, makin' love with a whore
Achin' in sores
Babylon, the great mystery
Mother of human history
System of social sorcery
Our present condition
Needs serious recognition

Lauren Hill is definitely a PF.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 03:56:43 GMT

Who says you can't find pick-up lines in the bible? Amanda, I know I told you I was going to wait until the morning so I can have some motivation to get out of bed, but I got to picking some out and got really excited to post it and see what people say. Here they come... are you all ready??

Song of Songs

"Kiss me again and again, for your love is sweeter than wine." 1:2

"Tell me, O love, where are you leading your flock today?" 1:7

"What a lovely filly you are, my beloved one! How lovely are your cheeks with your earings setting them afire!" 1:9 & 10
Filly: A lively, high-spirited girl or young woman. AKA: babe, broad, cheesecake, chichi, dowager, hussy, seductress.

"Your eyes are soft like doves!" 1:15b

"Oh, feed me with your love-your 'raisins' and your 'apples'-for I am utterly lovesick!" 2:5

" Quick! Catch all the little foxes before they ruin the vineyard of your love, for the grapevines are all in blossom." 2:15

"Your hair falls in waves, like a flock of goats frisking down the slopes of Gilead. Your teeth are as white as sheep, newly shorn and washed." 4:1b & 2

"Your breasts are like twin fawns of a gazelle, feeding amoung the lilies." 4:5

"You are like a spring that no one else can drink from, a fountain of my own. You are like a lovely orchard bearing precious fruit, with the rarest of perfumes." 4:12 & 13

That's only the first 4 chapters, I will leave you the liberty to explore the last 4. Note: Not responsible if these innovative, vibrant pick-up lines don't work. Good luck, all.

May God bless your search for a mate.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 21:16:54 GMT

I suppose I should explain where the name came from. This could be a long story. First of all, I would describe myself as somewhat hard-headed. When I believe something to be some way, and I'm told differently, I don't really accept it until I have facts or more info on it. So, me being hard-headed, I looked up other words for it in an online thesaurus. I came up with a lot of words like... cantankerous, contumacious, pertinacious, tenacious, and... firmly fixed. I'm not too sure how I feel about those other ones.

So, now that I've started this, everyone-feel free to comment. I love (underline if I could figure it out) to hear what other people think.

Talk to ya's later!

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 19:55:51 GMT

I am incredibly excited! I just got my notebook and it's flippin sweet! I also set up a xanga so you all can check me out, see what I'm up to, if my life is really that exciting. I'll try to update it, but we'll see how it goes.

I'll talk to you all soon.

Jamie